So I have dealt with depression for most of my life. It wasn’t until high school that I realized what it was. After several visits with a counselor back then I was also diagnosed with PTSD. From what my father did to me as a child, it’s totally understandable. So now as a 36 year old woman, I still deal with issues.
And that leads to my post focus….where are you happiness?
With PTSD you get so many wave of moods that don’t seem to relate to the world around you. Anger, saddness, controlling needs, etc. It’s very obnoxious to be frank. Put that with female hormones and stress and you have a recipe for trouble.
Should I blame my life and how I handle it on my past? Absolutely not!!! I am far from that little girl who was afraid in her own room. I am a woman with brains and a Abba who loves me dearly. So I must combat these feelings of uncontrol. I must allow God to work through me.
It says in the bible that: “for God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control.”
2 Timothy 1:7 ESV
(http://bible.com/59/2ti.1.7.ESV) Everyday I have to remind myself that. I need to stop being afraid and trust God in it all.